Doreen Greenwood has faced more than four decades of agony since her three children were murdered, yet the pain seems only to grow.
Monday marks the 42nd anniversary of burying her little ones and she knows it will be no easier to bear than pervious years.
The 66-year-old, of Lynn, said: “It’s just so painful still.”
Mrs Greenwood’s son Dean, three, and daughters Angela, two and Katherine, one, were pushed into a river in Spalding by a woman her husband had asked to look after them.
Mrs Greenwood said: “I went to the undertakers to see them and they were all in white, like three little angels, three little dolls.”
When her children were killed, Mrs Greenwood had temporarily fled her family home in Sutton St James where she was trapped in an unhappy marriage. She went on to have two more children before remarrying.
She said: “The husband I have now, James, is one in a million.”
On Monday, Mrs Greenwood will place yellow roses beside her babies’ headstone in Gayton Road cemetery.
She said: “I hope and pray they are in heaven.”